everybody has their own beautiful plan

now i know,
Every human has their own dream..
every human has their own plan for their live
N every human has the most important thing in their life..

But,
Every human have to fight to reach their dream
They have their own effort to do with their plaN
And also they have to keep their important thing and to make it always safe.

But in the end
Every human knows
That
Only God can make the decision for their life

it's almost a year...

Dear hunny,

15 desember..

setahun yang lalu...
waktu kita ketemu lagi
dengan situasi yg beda
dengan pembicaraan yang berbeda

aku masih belum ingin membuka hati buat kamu...
masih kekeuh dengan pilihanku..

tapi, kamu terlalu lucu
terlalupintar ngambil hati...
terlalu sayang buat dilewatkan...

aku tau,
waktu itu kesempatan nggak akan datang 2 kali..
dan mungkin...
dulu memang kita belom boleh sama-sama...

tapi setahun yang lalu...
semua jadi beda...

u're my annoying bad boy..
my lucky bastard...
my lovely bastard...
my sexy bastard
my family man...

kamu..
kamu...
hampir setahun ini...
semua tentang kamu...

sedih..
marah...
ketawa..
senyum senyum sendiri..
bahkan sampe napsu..
semuanya kamu...

aku tutup semua pintu.
aku cuma mau kamu...

hari ini..
besok..
lusa...
dan seterusnya...

cuma kamu...

hunny,
walaupun aku nggak tau kapan surat ini bakal kamu baca...
aku pengen kita bakal sama-sama terus...

terus..
dan terus...

may be now i know..
klo kata orang yg suka ngegombal itu selalu bilang
1st love never die...

my loneliness

here i am...
sit here in this crowd...
but i feel alone...
feel so stupid...
with nothing to do...
nothing to think about...

i have all
job,
boyfriend,
a few money...

but i don't have me..
i don't have my self

i'm alone...
alone....