bambang sulistyo putro..

Satu lagi pria baik dihidupku (semoga..)
Dia sudah pernah tau
Apa rasanya aku cuekin,
Gimana cueknya aku ketika dia mulai meributkan hal2 kecil

Dia mulai bisa membuatku nyaman,
Bisa ngemong..
Bisa membuatku merasa aman.

Memang,
Jalan kami tidak mudah,
Bahkan dia menganggap hampir tidak mungkin.
Kita,
Tidak mau berharap banyak..

Sekali lagi,
Beralan saja...
Semoga saya dapat yang terbaik.

another message for you..

Hunny,
Sweetheart..
Don't know when u'll open this post..
My only way to speak about my heart to you.

Hunny..
This man adore me so much..
Loving me so much..

I wish I can love him,like I've done to you
I realize everything is fake.
I'm trying so hard to open my heart,
And found a chemistry just for one second
But I can't..

Everybody seems so happy about me and him,
But they don't ask about my feeling.
Nobody.
I feel so alone,
I feel so empty.

Hunny,
I need you..
As my bestfriend
As someone who can understand me
But..
I can't find you
You just dissapear..
Gone..

Please,
I need someone to understand me..
Understand my feeling..
Understand my heart..

And to hug me so tight,without asking so many question
Just hug me,
All night long
Until I can't feel this pain...

Here I am..
Trying to make my self comfort with this guy..
The guy that love me.
I choose to be love,not loving someone..
Hope I walk in the right way..

Hunny,
Maybe our book have to closed,again..
Ya.. It's gonna be harder for me.
I'll still need you as my guardian angel..
Watch me and I'll still need you as my bestfriend
that have learn me many thing..
Things that I would never have in other side of my life..
It's about love,passion and it's about understanding..
U'll be my love for the first and the last..
Deep inside my heart,
I still believe we belongs together..

I love you so..
I adore you so..
U're the man that I always dream about..
The man that I hope give me the best surprise for my birthday
The man that make me stronger,
The man that make me so happy with your simplicity
My only lovely bastard..

I miss you so much hunny...